As the title suggests, contradiction is currently dominating my life rendering me exhausted emotionally.

I am happy and sad
I want the holidays to last but at the same time, wishing it would end
I am enjoying my holidays but at the same time so miserable
The list goes on so I won't bother writing them.

The point is, the gut-wrench-inducing feeling is caused by me wanting to apologize. Should I even bother? I sent her an e-mail asking whether I can call her or not. Pathetic, huh? For all I know, she won't even read the damn thing. Stupid bane of my existence.

One of the best things which had happened to me is.... well, SOMETHING. Will give a full report later. I don't have much time at the moment. Need to shower with the hopes it would wash away my misery and leave the remnants of things in me called happiness. Okay, dramatic, I KNOW! But with all the drama happening, I think I have some right to do so. LOL. NOT.

Amal

P/s: Applepounce, sorry for causing your ear drums to bleed by listening me whine about my boring life.
Pp/s: Elle, Ididn't have a choice. And I'm communicating with you, right? Call Aifa if you want to talk to me. My phone's in a comatose state until it's life support (a.k.a it's charger) decides to return from whatever epic journey it's going through. MISS YOU and wishing you were here!!!!